a psych student and a silly mean bully in her head.
i'm no different than the normal joe.
i just happen to know, learn, and understand about the brain and the mind and how it works in tandem with society.
i'm no different really. for example, i like interacting with people.
although later on when i'm alone or no longer at the function i would look back and, mostly i do not really think about the other person but, i think more about myself. how i acted. how i reacted. how i behaved. how i sounded. how i spoke. how i laughed. that's how we humans are.
we think of ourselves more than others.
now going back. when i'm alone and have no one to entertain, my brain does it for me. sometimes it's quiet, sometimes it's loud and gives me these silly thoughts of:
"she probably finds you annoying" "he's probably only talking to you because he feels bad" "they probably think you're a mess with how you stuttered" "that was awkward" "just stop talking to them" "stop bothering others already"
some days i listen and maybe start to consider.
some days i outright reject them and go "nah you're wrong, i don't think so"
and more often time than not, my silly thoughts are wrong. these people prove my silly thoughts wrong.
so have that!
silly mean bully in my head.